Bruno "Guess I'll Die" Madrigal (![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png)
wedonttalkabout) wrote2022-03-06 02:05 am
wedonttalkabout) wrote2022-03-06 02:05 am
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So tired that I couldn't even sleep
So many secrets I couldn't keep
Promised myself I wouldn't weep
One more promise I couldn't keep
So many secrets I couldn't keep
Promised myself I wouldn't weep
One more promise I couldn't keep
Look at me
Is it written on my face, the luxuries I've known?
Am I a foreign presence
Someplace that used to be my home?
Is it written on my face, the luxuries I've known?
Am I a foreign presence
Someplace that used to be my home?
So the little boat's trying to get to her
But the table is deep and wide
The lesson I learned from my mother
Was to see the great divide
But the table is deep and wide
The lesson I learned from my mother
Was to see the great divide
Is it a kind of a shadow
Reaching into the night
Wandering over the hills unseen
Or is it a dream?
Reaching into the night
Wandering over the hills unseen
Or is it a dream?
Went to school and I was very nervous
No one knew me, no one knew me
Hello, teacher! Tell me, what's my lesson?
Look right through me, look right through me
No one knew me, no one knew me
Hello, teacher! Tell me, what's my lesson?
Look right through me, look right through me
I'm out on the edge and I'm screaming my name
Like a fool at the top of my lungs
Sometimes when I close my eyes I pretend I'm alright
But it's never enough
Like a fool at the top of my lungs
Sometimes when I close my eyes I pretend I'm alright
But it's never enough
You lost your mind in the sound
There's so much more, you can reclaim your crown
You're in control
Rid of the monsters inside your head
Put all your faults to bed
There's so much more, you can reclaim your crown
You're in control
Rid of the monsters inside your head
Put all your faults to bed
Mama, come here
Approach, appear
And Daddy, I'm alone
'Cause this house don't feel like home
Approach, appear
And Daddy, I'm alone
'Cause this house don't feel like home
I'm scared to get close, and I hate being alone
I long for that feeling to not feel at all
The higher I get, the lower I'll sink
I can't drown my demons, they know how to swim
I long for that feeling to not feel at all
The higher I get, the lower I'll sink
I can't drown my demons, they know how to swim
Well, well
Look who's inside again
Went out to look for a reason to hide again
Well, well
Buddy, you found it
Look who's inside again
Went out to look for a reason to hide again
Well, well
Buddy, you found it
Well it's hard to find a reason
When all you have is doubts
Hard to see inside yourself
When can't see your way out
When all you have is doubts
Hard to see inside yourself
When can't see your way out
I was always looking back on what I should have done
I used to live my life in fear
Of the terrible performances that brought me here
But I'm looking forward, I'm looking forward
I'm looking forward now
I used to live my life in fear
Of the terrible performances that brought me here
But I'm looking forward, I'm looking forward
I'm looking forward now
With every heartbeat I have left
I will defend your every breath
And I'll do better
I will defend your every breath
And I'll do better
And lines got blurred
Somewhere in between my fathers son
And their twisted fantasy
And I felt empty, what's left of me?
Somewhere in between my fathers son
And their twisted fantasy
And I felt empty, what's left of me?
Trying to keep up with you
And I don't know if I can do it
Oh no I've said too much
I haven't said enough
And I don't know if I can do it
Oh no I've said too much
I haven't said enough
But every wrong turn that you make will also be my mistake
'Cause we're connected through our hearts
And the devastating part is that I foolishly defended you to myself
But secrets always have a way of coming out
'Cause we're connected through our hearts
And the devastating part is that I foolishly defended you to myself
But secrets always have a way of coming out
But you can't keep the ghosts out
When you're the one who's the haunted house
And you can't kick the ghosts out
When you're the one who let them in
When you're the one who's the haunted house
And you can't kick the ghosts out
When you're the one who let them in
I can smile at the old days
I was beautiful then
I remember the time I knew what happiness was
Let the memory live again
I was beautiful then
I remember the time I knew what happiness was
Let the memory live again
I'm hugging my knees
And the captain is pointing
Well, who made her captain?
Still, the weakest must go
And the captain is pointing
Well, who made her captain?
Still, the weakest must go
There is a wall in my life built by you
You opened a door that a kid shouldn't walk through
Oh, but I'm not bitter, I'm just tired
No use getting angry at the way that you're wired
Ignorant trauma in one afternoon
You opened a door that a kid shouldn't walk through
Oh, but I'm not bitter, I'm just tired
No use getting angry at the way that you're wired
Ignorant trauma in one afternoon
I was unconscious, half asleep
The water is warm 'til you discover how deep
I wasn't jumping, for me it was a fall
It's a long way down, to nothing at all
The water is warm 'til you discover how deep
I wasn't jumping, for me it was a fall
It's a long way down, to nothing at all
Two birds of a feather
Say that they're always gonna stay together
But one's never going to let go of that wire
He says that he will
But he's just a liar
Say that they're always gonna stay together
But one's never going to let go of that wire
He says that he will
But he's just a liar
Don't look at me with those eyes
I tried to unheave the ties
Turn back the tide that drew him
But he couldn't be saved
I tried to unheave the ties
Turn back the tide that drew him
But he couldn't be saved
Hello, I'm here
I'm living in the wall
I know I might be small
But I am the eighth wonder
I'm living in the wall
I know I might be small
But I am the eighth wonder
Woke up this morning early before my family
From this dream where she was trying to show me
How a life can move from the darkness
She said to get better
From this dream where she was trying to show me
How a life can move from the darkness
She said to get better
Sorry, I didn't respond for a week
It goes without saying, I wasn't asleep
I'm just afraid that the more that I'm known
The higher the chance that I'll end up alone
It goes without saying, I wasn't asleep
I'm just afraid that the more that I'm known
The higher the chance that I'll end up alone
I'm not really sure if my words make sense to you
But I can't really find
Any other way to form these feelings into cubes
And sort them in my mind
The negative thoughts go on the left
And the happy things on the right
And there's a little corner saved just for you
But I can't really find
Any other way to form these feelings into cubes
And sort them in my mind
The negative thoughts go on the left
And the happy things on the right
And there's a little corner saved just for you
Won't you stay with me, my darling
When my walls start burning down, down, down?
This house says my name like an elegy
Oh my, oh my
Echoing where my ghosts all used to be
When my walls start burning down, down, down?
This house says my name like an elegy
Oh my, oh my
Echoing where my ghosts all used to be
All of these faces who don't know what space is
And crowds are shut down, I'm over-stimulated
Nobody gets it, say I'm too sensitive
I can't listen 'cause I'm eyeing the exits
And crowds are shut down, I'm over-stimulated
Nobody gets it, say I'm too sensitive
I can't listen 'cause I'm eyeing the exits
You really don't have a say
You barely opened up your eyes
You've had no chance to have a life
Replace the monkey in this rotating cage
You barely opened up your eyes
You've had no chance to have a life
Replace the monkey in this rotating cage
I am dented
By the scars that keep me up at night
And it's not agoraphobia
It's just a lack of air supply
That keeps me up at night
By the scars that keep me up at night
And it's not agoraphobia
It's just a lack of air supply
That keeps me up at night
Please don't react
To all of the littlest things that I do
You're trying to wear me out
To make you feel brand new
To all of the littlest things that I do
You're trying to wear me out
To make you feel brand new
I've cried, cried, cried, and I can't recall what for
I've pressed, I've pushed, I've yelled, I've begged
In hopes of some success
But the inevitable fact is that it never will impress!
I've pressed, I've pushed, I've yelled, I've begged
In hopes of some success
But the inevitable fact is that it never will impress!
Oh, captain, let's make a deal
Where we both say the things that we both really feel
I feel scared and I'm starting to sink
And I only sink deeper the deeper I think
Where we both say the things that we both really feel
I feel scared and I'm starting to sink
And I only sink deeper the deeper I think
Searching every room, I am not free
To my dismay, I have forgotten how to leave
And everywhere I turn's another wall
The doors are locked trust me I know
'Cause I have tried them all
To my dismay, I have forgotten how to leave
And everywhere I turn's another wall
The doors are locked trust me I know
'Cause I have tried them all
Longer still, withstanding the most I will
Still be the most I can
Drying out, dragging down now
'Cause I got older
And we got tired
Heaven I know that we tried
Still be the most I can
Drying out, dragging down now
'Cause I got older
And we got tired
Heaven I know that we tried
Sometimes, it's like I'm stumbling forward
Hustled forward
Jostled from behind by time
And sometimes, it's like I'm being dragged
Yet always lagging
Trying to keep in time with time
Hustled forward
Jostled from behind by time
And sometimes, it's like I'm being dragged
Yet always lagging
Trying to keep in time with time
So this long line of cars
Is trying to break free
And this long line of cars
Is all because of me
Is trying to break free
And this long line of cars
Is all because of me
Even though I'm the sacrifice
You won't try for me, not now
Though I'd die to know you love me
I'm all alone
Isn't someone missing me?
You won't try for me, not now
Though I'd die to know you love me
I'm all alone
Isn't someone missing me?
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